The One Who Changes Names

I woke up a betrayer.
I am treason on the edge.
My every inclination is destruction.
Why do you draw near?

If you are my king,
I am your Judas.
I kissed you in the garden
And set myself up as God.

Shame covers me in darkness.
How did I come to love the dark?
Am I beyond your reach?
Do you know what I am?

Long have you known me
Long have I cursed you.
Long have you whispered love to me.
Long have I feared you.

You should have imprisoned me,
Yet I rome free -unable to accept my freedom.
How can I forget what I have done?
Can you erase the past?

Your blessings are fire to my bones
How can I accept them, traitor that I am?
I deserve nothing but death,
Yet you grant life.

You are grace.
You are righteousness.
All knowing.
All powerful.

You are - yet you love me.