Here I am

It has been a while since last I spared a moment to capture my thoughts and dreams. I think I have been afraid to write my way through last few days. I did not know what to say to the endless void.

This is an entry written to music. As such, I believe it should be read while listening to music. I recommend this:

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/album/In_Bruges/2851385

I have played more video games in the past two weeks than the last 3 years. This is a good indication that I am trying to avoid responsibility and difficult decisions. There is a certain twang in realizing that.

I have been meandering closer still to a crossroads. Like the point in time when Tarzan must release one vine and choose the next, I have come to this hinge moment in need of direction. Where to next? I think that is the question I have been half heartedly avoiding for the past 6 months. The point of decision is certainly near.

What will it take to become the person I must?

What does it take for dreams to come to fruition?

I feel as though a great many of the worlds challenges might have prevented had individuals made the difficult decisions necessary for them to fully unlock their potential. One of my greatest fears is that I might live out my days having missed the the mark - having chosen poorly, moving away from who I could have been.

All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing

~Edmund Burke

I do not know why, but this quote came to mind. I do not want to live my life having done nothing - having simply been a 'good man.' I do not want to settle with being 'nice.'

~David